im not gonna talk about christmas or new years. these holidays will just have to pass. i want them too. i dont really want to celebrate or really acknowledge them. at least this time around. i miss home. i miss my friends. i miss a lot of things. im looking forward to 2010. it should be a good year. should be. i hope to accomplish alot of the things on my list. im gonna be 21. time to keep moving...
being miserable and loneliness, have become such a familiar feeling. ive come to know it so well. its kind of all ive really known for the past 2 and a half years. kinda upsetting really.
its not one thing, its another.
it hurt but i finally got one :]
its difficult to read people sometimes. their intentions, who they really are how they really feel. we all put up a masquerade sometimes. its hard not to cause of fear. i wish things like that wouldnt force us to be someone different, but it happens. anyways. happy anny kb. i miss you.